randoms.

hee.

this's a lil something that made me smile.



he said he chose this card for me cuz he knew i would like it and would like to be the one standing on that rock. and he had his explanations. amazing. lol!



thanks jian!!

this's the kindda storm we have at vista..





the kindda haze we have..



and the beautiful sunset..





erm..that day dad killed a micey..



found it in the sink and threw hot water on it. i yecked.

lastly..my new bag..


bought when shopping 2 days before exams. hee. me likes.

exams are over. freedom. 7 weeks. me likings!

hope i passed!

i want!!!

the only thing that's stopping my crave is by telling myself my phone is only a few months old. i shouldn't change so soon! just checked..and it's already more than a year old!!! darn! it IS time to get a new one.. haha! not! anyway, it's not wrong to crave right. i am, after all, deprived of great gadgets. hee.

anyway, christmas and birthday is coming! whe! so i'll do you guys a great favor. this is something you all can get me. then, for the rest of my life, you don't have to crack your heads on what to buy for me anymore. one gift for life. isn't that amazing!!

Nokia N97

iPhone 3G

ok here's something more affordable.



Chanel 2.55 inspired. RM55.

whiteys. i like.

AH I WANT!!!!

i shall dream on..

[7.9.2009] pharmacy attachment

it was the day of my pharmacy attachment. slept over at grace's. that night i had very itchy eyes. rubbed till can't open them and fell asleep. the next morning..

there were sticky tears, greeny dried tears, and corneal edema (water retention at the cornea). i t felt terrible, my eyes could hardly open, and i looked like a ghost. bacteria infection. darn. i knew the pharmacist was gonna give me some medications and try to earn some money from me..

..which he did. antibiotic eyedrops (with RM2 offer). after much considerations, i decided to use it. first time introducing antibiotics to my body. i'm an anti-medicine pharmacy student, yes. ha. eye got better that day itself. bacteria cleared and never came back. good.

attachment was boring. learnt not much, and packed drugs..

but over all it was still good. allowed me to know a lil better on how it is like to be a community pharmacist..don't think i would wanna be one..maybe cuz of the long working hours. 10am - 10pm!!

we also had one of the best curry laksa there..

awesome!

i stayed at grace's for 3 nights. it was awesome! hanging out with grace and her siblings, and her parents. had good talks, especially with her mum (for hours!!!). had amazing food!! (thanks aunty linda!!! but you really shouldn't have!!)

on my last night there, went with grace, hsing and aaron for their bible study session. then went to station 1 to chill.

was great! had so much fun!

always enjoyed hanging out with them!!!! missing them lots!

on the last day, before i left, aunty linda gave me a lil goodbye gift..

(also chosen by hsing..lol)

thank you so much aunty linda, uncle, gracie, hsing, and aaron. i had a really great time with each of you!!!

whe!

comfort

able to empathize.
to understand.
to comfort.
people came crying and left smiling.
that was then..

now..
they cry, i stare.
they talk, i listened, and stayed dumb.
i want to do something.
say something.
but what?
i feel stupid.

where's my ability to comfort?
they used to come so naturally..

hating it.

the impossibles..

this is what i call forgiveness..


this is what i call sacrifice..


this is what i call love..

and one can only show the above acts if and only if one has experienced them from GOD Himself - the creator of these impossibles.

teach me Father.

with you..

wish i could enjoy them with you..
there were so much to share..
so much..

:'(

ODJ : sufferings

topic : perfect suffering

Prosperity preachers don’t last long in countries where there is persecution. They usually just leave.” That quote by Ajith Fernando from his book The Call to Joy and Pain captures two realities of the Christian faith: (1) Jesus suffered; (2) those who believe in Him will suffer too.

Unlike “health and wealth” false teachers, Jesus taught that suffering was something God uses for our good. In Hebrews 2:10, the writer states that Jesus became “through His suffering, a perfect leader.” This doesn’t mean that Jesus wasn’t already perfect, for He is God the Son. It does point out, however, that death allowed Him to intimately know the final stage of human experience—giving Him an even more perfect ability to identify with our struggles (5:8).

The apostle Paul experienced the perfecting process of pain. He prayed three times for God to remove something that was tormenting him. But God allowed it to persist, saying, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness” (2 Corinthians 12:9). Paul’s response? “That’s why I take pleasure in . . . [suffering] for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong” (v.10).

Jesus is able to identify with us and help us because of the hardships He endured. “Since He Himself has gone through suffering and testing, He is able to help us when we are being tested” (Hebrews 2:18). He “understands our weaknesses, for He faced all of the same testings we do” (4:15).

Are you experiencing suffering? Don’t fight against it as one who has no hope. Don’t believe the lies of false teachers who wrongly say, “You simply need more faith to overcome your struggles.”

Instead, embrace your suffering as a gift from God—being used to perfect you and your faith in Him (12:2).

So be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you have to endure many trials for a little while. These trials will show that your faith is genuine. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold—though your faith is far more precious than mere gold. So when your faith remains strong through many trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world. [1 Peter 1:6-7]

perfectly said.

Because you love me..

All for love, the Father gave,
For only love could make a way.
All for love, the heavens cried,
For love was crucified.

How many times have I broken Your heart..
but still You forgive, if only I ask.
How many times have You heard me pray..
and drew near to me.

All I need is You
My comforter, my counselor, helper in time of need,
the rock on which I stand, the strong pillar which I can lean on.
You are all I ever needed.

Let me speak of Your love..

All for love a Saviour prayed..
Father may Your will be done.

We know not what we do.
We beg of Your forgiveness,
which you so generously give.

Your grace, mercy, and love,
we do not deserve.
Yet You graciously overflow us with.

Thank You Father.
Take me, mould me,
use me, fill me.
Make me what you want me to be.
For I deserve nothing from You,
and yet you provided.

I am overwhelmed with humbleness..

[19.9.2009] STOMP @ St Mark's

On the 19 of September 2009, a few of our youth, namely Tony Pushpan, Padmini, Janning, Jovenne, Benson, Benroy, Celine, Sugin and Timothy attended STOMP!, a youth rally organized by St. Mark's Church, Seremban, together with the Diocesan Youth Council. The youth gathered in St. Paul’s Church at 2:30pm on that day and together, traveled to the event with Tony driving the church van.

We arrived at St. Mark's Church at 4pm and registered ourselves, while enjoying tea.

The event was attended by about 150 young people of all ages and many different Anglican churches. It started at 5:30pm with an opening prayer and Tony as the emcee.

A dance was then presented by the youths of St. Mark's Church, titled “Who’s In the House”. This was then followed by a session of praise and worship by bBig from St. Barnabas’ Church, Klang.

The invited speaker for the night was Pastor Gurmit Singh, a singh that accepted the Lord, and is from the AOG (Assembly of God) church.

He started his talk with a 3-minute-video of the declaration of Jesus. He then went on to talk about “Making and Setting Your Mark”. Briefly, he talked about us, as Christians, it’s about BEING and not just DOING; that we should invest on things that has eternal value, and not worldly things; and that we should bear good fruits by being a “good tree” as only a good tree bears good fruits (Luke 6:43). However, there is a decision that we need to make before we are able to be all these. He then ended his powerful message with something that stayed in our minds, “Come back to God. The decision is yours”.

After the talk, the praise and worship session continued with a concert by the Prodigal Apostles from The Church of Our Lady of Lourdes, Klang parish, followed by a band presentation by Vincent and friends.

Finally, before ending the event for the night, love gifts were presented to all the different church groups and priests that were present and to the invited speaker, Pastor Gurmit Singh. The event ended at 8:15pm with a prayer and everyone then proceeded to the field for the lighting of the campfire and dinner that was served with a charge of RM5.

After dinner and some fellowship with old and new friends from other congregations, the St. Paul’s team headed back to Petaling Jaya. When asked about their experience, here was what some of the youth responded:

“The whole place was rocking with God's presence and everyone was so energetic and excited to worship Him. It was a great experience!”, according to Benroy, 14 year old.

“It was awesome! The youths in our church need to be part of this! I wished they came!”, said Sugin, 22 year old.

Prepared by,
Janning Lai.

And so that was my lil article i wrote for my church's magazine (Parishlink). aka the formal version of what happened that day. now, more on the less-serious part...

we arrived at st mark's a lil too early, therefore we walked around the church compound and camwhore!!!!

we also found something behind the church!! a graveyard!! like...wth??

they decided to spend a moment of silence and paid some respect..lol. and, as shown, they were mourning thus the black clothes. it was also written, on the tombstone.. "not dead, but asleep". talk bout freaky-ness!

and then we went for the rally and met so many old friends! was a long time since we last seen each other. was nice seeing them again! and so we took..a picture!

part of the st paul's gang.

after the event, we went back to church and while waiting for the yaps' parents to come pick them up, we continued...taking some pictures!!

posers.


no idea what we were doing...


still no idea..

and so that was it. i enjoyed spending time with friends. rally itself was ok. camwhoring was fun. hahah. sesat sikit la ya..

[13.9.2009] double Bs & double Js

it was after church on a random sunday and the 4 of us decided to go for lunch together. our very first hanging out session. after wantan mee at this famous stall we tend to often go to, we went to Jaya 1? 2? 3? 33? forgot the number. anyway, we went to Wendy's there cuz jo wanted to redeem her free float. and then, the craziness begins..

it all started when benroy took a picture of jo and edited it with his amazing phone.

then we started taking pictures of each other non stop..





got some pretty good shots of them.. there were many expressions..









there were laughter and joy..





there were lots of brotherly love..













there were weird pictures..


benroy working on his super powers?


no idea what he was doing..


a slap from jo!! i like!


benroy : hey try taking a picture of my face while i do this!


benson what's with your finger!

and then the Bs suggested we play the staring game. first it was janning vs benson. i lost in a second for all 3 rounds. it's hard to stare at jokers and not laugh. then it was jovenne vs benroy. same thing happened to her but she managed to control the last round..for a lil longer. then finally, the 2 champions battled.. B vs B!

they both started making faces to make each other laugh..

in the end benroy won twice and benson once..right? i just know benson kept bursting out laughing in the end..and benroy was really cute! lol.

and so the champion was benroy!!!



last but not least, a picture of the Js..



after that, we headed home..with smiles.

was a great day..

when it hurts..

So humble yourselves under the mighty power of God, and at the right time he will lift you up in honor. Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you. [1 Peter 5:6-7]

IT HURTS! I have cried to my heavenly Father, “It hurts!” Hurt is a common human condition. We all suffer hardship and trouble. Haven’t you cried to God, “It hurts!” Ordinary pain from human relationships hurts, and our sins against each other just makes it hurt all the more. We hurt from the anxieties of making a living and making many mistakes. We hurt from terror and tragedy, and from change, sickness and death. Does our God really care when we cry, “Father, it hurts!”

GOD CARES. The Apostle Peter taught that God has a mighty hand to lift you up, not to crush you. He only wants you to humbly depend upon him and his timing. This means you must be real with God, entrust all your anxieties into his mighty hand; then let him work his purpose and blessing in his way and his time. It’s difficult, because you would rather not feel the pain; but you must learn to trust God cares for you.

GOD SEES AND HAS COMPASSION. There is a wonderful story in the Bible in Genesis 16 that shows our God does see. Sarai, the wife of Abram, treated her handmaid Hagar so harshly that Hagar fled into the desert. Now she was expecting Abram’s child and was in a harsh land. Abram and Sarai had caused her hurt by agreeing to let Hagar have their child, thinking this is what God intended. But this was not God’s way. People most often cause hurt upon themselves and others because they follow their own selfish ways rather than God’s way. But Hagar also brought hurt upon herself. She looked upon Sarai, her mistress, with contempt, since she could have Abram’s child but Sarai could not. However, the Lord God saw Hagar’s plight, and sent his angel to bless her and to encourage her to return to her mistress with a submissive attitude. Hagar did follow God’s way, and she rejoiced that God looked after her.There is another story in the Bible in Luke 7:11-17 about a grieving widow who had just lost her only son, a son who had certainly helped to care for his mother. The Lord Jesus saw the funeral procession and the widow weeping. When Jesus saw her he had compassion on her. First he offered her comfort by telling her not to weep; then he gave her son back his life. In this thorn and death cursed world, Jesus brings life and joy. The crowd was amazed and offered praise of what this meant: “God has visited his people!”

CRY TO GOD AND GOD WILL VISIT YOU. Before the heavenly Father sent his Son Jesus, many cried out to him and found that he cared. The Psalms are a wealth of examples of sincere and earnest hearts seeking a caring God with a mighty hand. Read Psalm 34 and Psalm 107 and find encouragement for your time of need. “The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit” (Psalm 34:18), and “For he [God] satisfies the longing soul, and the hungry soul he fills with good things” (Psalm 107:9).

GOD HAS A PURPOSE. Entrust your anxieties to God. You will not hurt in vain, for God will show you the comfort and power of his grace and life over weakness and death (2 Corinthians 1:3-11). Without the hurt of the thorn in the flesh, you would not experience growth in God’s comfort and grace in life (2 Corinthians 12:7-10). That priceless experience brings personal blessing, joy and the competence to help and encourage others.

You have a decision to make.. what is your decision??

Source : http://bryanbuttram.wordpress.com/2007/09/24/it-hurts-and-god-does-care/

My friend, my father, my king, my savior...

do you know him?

[12.9.2009] mum's 50th birthday!

it's the big 5 and an O!!! haha. someone's getting oLLLLLddd!!! we celebrated mum's birthday a lil later cuz on her birthday, she just came back from cambodia with her cousin and friend, jess wasn't free to make a cake for mum and i was at jalil.

and so the weekend came and jess wanted to make something for mum. mum dislike cakes tho so jess, with her creative thinking, came up with something that never existed. she just grabbed what she had and did what she could.

it came out like a piece of..erm..crap (according to jess). and so she named it 'krap-leys'. the story bout it is here.

it didn't look appetizing. it's basically just pastry with cheese and sour cream. but when we tasted it.. it was AWEEEESOOOMMMEEE!!! seriously! i like! we were all so excited bout how great it tasted!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMMY!!
we you!!

thanks jess for the awesome 'crap'!

[31.8.2009] AFC @ Penang

friday night right after class, i went home to pack and off i went to church to meet up with the rest. then we headed off. 14 of us in a 44-sitter coach. good stuff. we had our share of space! (however it was too bumpy and still uncomfy for me so i didn't get to sleep throughout the journey at all. ) but it was all good. catching up and hanging out.

halfway throughout the journey at a toilet stop at tapah..

we arrived at Christ church penang at 4am!

settled down, then woke at 7am for breakfast..

the next day was filled with dance trainings. it was a church youth dance camp, and we were invited to be trainers.

at night, after the campers went to bed, pastor and co brought the bunch of us out to eat good food. yummm!!!

attacked by drea, josh, von and i! great stuff! haha.

thank you for treating us every night!! it was awesome!!

after that, back in church, andrea and i had to come up with a video to publicize our evangelistic arts groups - AFC (all for christ) - telling them bout what we do and bout our camp in december. so we spent half the night awake working on it, while the others snore..

during this moment, there were many other happenings..


josh went a lil ku-ku..


zech started treating joe as his bolster..


joe finally fell asleep too..

the next day, there were more dance trainings and more good food. one thing pretty weird bout this bunch of kids..they were all cubix-crazy. every kid could solve it in record time! half of our bunch were also cubix-crazy. made me wander what was so great bout it. was never interested in it and thought it was a waste of time. but that night, benson managed to brainwash me and got me interested..

"ok hurry teach me before i change my mind..", i said. and so i learnt it that night, and solved it for the first time...with lots of help from benson of course. (i'm much better now..my record time is 2 minutes currently. don't think i'll get any better. not putting anymore effort. too lazy. haha) Thanks!!

the next day was goodbye-day. before leaving church to get more good food for the last time, we started camwhoring..as usual..

my favourite boy there. that's his drawing..he drew it for me! and yes i still have it. how sweet eh!!! awwwwww!!!


the 2 Js and the 2 Bens. first time getting to know them..


sis and i with some of the campers..


AFC and the campers.

off we went after saying our goodbyes. went to find penang's popular chendol and laksa!

the one in white is pastor. nice guy! treated us so much! thank you!!

after that, we went a lil sight seeing around ferringhi beach. no pictures as we were only in the church van driving around as there weren't anytime to stop and chill.

all in all, it was a great trip. enjoyed myself with the kids..very touching to know that they liked us and wish we would come back again. they were emotional when we left, and some are trying their best to join us for our camp in december.

besides that, i enjoyed spending time with people i care for..

lastly, on the trip back home..in the bus, the card the kids gave us were being passed around and reading it touched me..

[27.8.2009] m'sian studies project

tho i'm not in the m'sian studies group, i was part of this as we were raising funds for our batch's convo mag. the day started off with english class, which only some of us were involved in. it was our last class - for life! we had assessment that day, in-prompt-tu speech. was ok. then, class ended and they started to strip andrew..

'helping' drew change to his traditional clothes.

since after english class, we had bout 2 hours of free time..what else to do but camwhore!

there were family portraits..





there were retarded pictures..















(notice the 2 constants in almost all the retarded pictures? )

and of course, there were good pictures...

and so the time came and the project started. there were dances, marching, and some other presentations that were all really good! everyone was enjoying themselves, making the best out of the things they were doing. unity, joy, and teamwork were shining from the atrium! since the deco were so nice, who can stop us from taking more pictures..?

i'm impressed!!! by far, one of the best i've seen.


6 of us with the KL twin towers.


the deco i really liked. ignore the posers. lol.

and the camwhore continues...


the incomplete us. MIA : mogan and hsing!!


with our dean. notice that sinyee and i were wearing almost the same cheongsam! culoz!! (pronounced cool-lous..)



the naughty girls...

it was a day to remember...

don't break my heart..

don't.

:(

only you can help me through father..

:'(

personality test it seems...

Dear Janning Lai, below are your PSYCHOLOGY PERSONALITY test results:

You love the crowd... a party animal! Too many “friends”, you can’t easily tell which among them is real and not...

You hide your emotions... Sometimes pretending to be always happy. Sometimes, not giving even a hint of what you really feel.

You search for love... you’re a hopeless romantic and every time you enter a relationship, you give your all and believe “this is the One.”

You appreciate simple things in life... You hate complicating things that’s why you’re typically up-front in any aspect.

You’re an ideal boyfriend/girlfriend... You don’t care if your partner doesn’t really love you as long as you love him/her. You give your all...

You’re undoubtedly good-natured! Most of the time, people are confident to approach you because they know you will consider them.

You’re independent! You’re also risky just like the bajaken who sail in the vast and dangerous ocean to look for treasures!

facebook..

she will never know..

she cried.
i wanted to chase after her.
instead, i told him to. cuz i know she would appreciate him more.
if i were her, i would like him to go.. and so he went..

he couldn't find her so he asked her to go..
this time i wanted to go but she went instead..
it was good.
both of them came out smiling.
guess they had a good talk.
she was there for her.
and i wasn't.

not like i didn't want to.
i really wanted to.
but i guess i was shy..
or didn't know how to show i care..

at the end of the day,
the one who cared...lost.
and she will never know i cared..

the world is full of lies.

why....

why do people take people for granted..
till it's too late?

why do people hurt people..
intentionally?

why want to wait till it's too late..
then regret?

why the foolishness?

why do emotions exist?

why?

[22.8.2009] FRIM with cousins

been a while since we cousins hang out. so we had one, after a looong time. however, only half was able to make it. but we went ahead anyway. to FRIM, kepong, which is bout 20 minutes from my place. was looking forward to it cuz love spending time with nature! it's a get-away. to chill, relax, and enjoy the peaceful noises nature makes.

got our spot and started picnic'ing beside the waterfalls and streams.



after settling down, jo, jess and i went around to camwhore!

at the nearby stream, we were soaking our feet, and fishes started nibbling us!! so we stood there and enjoyed it. was ticklish at first then it got very relaxing. now i know why it's called a fish spa.

then it started to rain. we shifted to a nearby HUGE shelter. settled down. had the whole place to ourselves.



weiaun brought a mat for picnic. it's the mat for twister! we decided to play it instead.


lining up and waiting for our turns.



we also celebrated chung han's 10th birthday.




us.

when the rain stopped, we went for a lil trekking. before that, went to the office to find out on how to go to a certain place in the jungle. however, it was closed for lunch. found a fish spa spot instead. a real one this time. however, we would have to buy coupons for just a 20 minute spa.

since the staffs were out for lunch..we decided to do it for free - self service.



this time the fishes were much bigger and they looked so hungry! freaky. but in the end, it's so relaxing. ahhh...

before the staffs came back, we left..just so we wouldn't get caught. hee. then we started trekking..

a huge fish! (circled in red) very beautiful!




huge bamboo!


the place we were looking for. beautiful sight!

after we reached this nice canopy area, we turned back and called it a day, cuz we didn't want to get lost and there's nothing much left to be done in FRIM (unless we hire a guide which cost RM80 to bring us around..). besides if we really wanted to hike, we needed more time. it was already 3pm..

though it was only a half day trip, i enjoyed myself - enjoyed god's creation -> nature. i'll go there again. this time, to really hike all the way in and adventure! whe!

more pictures at multiply.

thanks weiaun for organising it!

ODJ : life is unfair?

topic : freak folk

sometimes i wonder..why people who are greedy, inconsiderate, lie, self-centered, prideful etc, tend to enjoy life better. why do these self-centered people seem to get what they do not deserve? eg. friends, people liking them, wealth, attention etc. where is justice? it isn't fair.

we are taught to be good - nonself-centered, humble, truthful, generous, to think bout others first etc. but why does it seem that when we do, we are the ones that would suffer more in the end? why do good when it brings no good? agitates me! makes me wanna rebel.

today's devotion assured me that holding on to my principles, being good, and doing what i believe is right (eg. give more than you receive, sincerity etc), is the right thing to do and i shouldn't be discouraged. it also makes me realize why i wanna be "good" - cuz the holy spirit lives within me and it makes me wanna be like Christ!

here are the verses that really encouraged me...

Psalm 37

1 Don’t worry about the wicked or envy those who do wrong.
2 For like grass, they soon fade away. Like spring flowers, they soon wither.
3 Trust in the Lord and do good. Then you will live safely in the land and prosper.
4 Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you your heart’s desires.
5 Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust him, and he will help you.
6 He will make your innocence radiate like the dawn, and the justice of your cause will shine like the noonday sun.
7 Be still in the presence of the Lord, and wait patiently for him to act. Don’t worry about evil people who prosper or fret about their wicked schemes.
8 Stop being angry! Turn from your rage! Do not lose your temper—it only leads to harm.

Matthew 5

The Beatitudes
3 God blesses those who are poor and realize their need for him, for the Kingdom of Heaven is theirs.
4 God blesses those who mourn, for they will be comforted.
5 God blesses those who are humble, for they will inherit the whole earth.
6 God blesses those who hunger and thirst for justice,for they will be satisfied.
7 God blesses those who are merciful, for they will be shown mercy.
8 God blesses those whose hearts are pure, for they will see God.
9 God blesses those who work for peace, for they will be called the children of God.
10 God blesses those who are persecuted for doing right, for the Kingdom of Heaven is theirs.
11 God blesses you when people mock you and persecute you and lie about you and say all sorts of evil things against you because you are my followers.
12 Be happy about it! Be very glad! For a great reward awaits you in heaven. And remember, the ancient prophets were persecuted in the same way.

just as i thought that it's no use being "good"..i was encouraged.

you may not be rewarded now, but one day you will.

something is missing..

may you be able to acquire the wisdom of handling her..

gentleness.

personality test

did this and these are my results.. those which i think is NOT true would be bold and italic. =)

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you meet that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

the room

thank you father, for your grace i do not deserve...

i want to live for you..

mount kinabalu

i went!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sigh. i WISHED i went! anyway, was just surfing facebook as usual and went thru my friends' pictures on mount KK. then i got depressed. cuz it was SO BEAUTIFUL!! i never knew it was THAT beautiful! makes me wanna go even more! just, don't know when will i ever have that chance.. it's unbelievable m'sia has such amazing places! it's so near, yet so far. 1 of the things i would want to do before i die : climb mount KK!

i seriously don't know what to say, but..it's BEAUTIFUL! and i WANTTTTT TOOO GOOOOO!!! ish! look at the pictures and you'll get what i mean..

and finally, my favourite picture...

ignore the guy there tho. this IS the nicest picture cuz of the background. tried finding one without anyone but..to no avail. anyway since he's in the picture...credits to him for the pictures. thanks andrew..

wondering when will i ever go..

TFO @ the STAR online

was suppose to post this up last year. ha. anyway, here it is..



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missing those days!

ODJ : guard your hearts

topic : heart matters

Proverbs 4:23 (NIV)
Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.

i never understood it. never bothered to. sometimes it's just a habit to skip the meaning when i don't understand. till few minutes later, was talking to a friend whom i don't usually talk to, and she suddenly said...

"guard your heart: for it is the wellspring of life"

i stoned and stared at it for a while cuz i just read it today for devotion! god must be saying something and i shouldn't ignore. thus i started doing a lil study on what it actually meant. tried reading other versions..

(TEV) Be careful how you think; your life is shaped by your thoughts.

(NLT) Above all else, guard your heart, for it affects everything you do.

Now i understand better. firstly, let's look at the word "heart". These days, "heart" meant the place where our emotions are. those days, for the Hebrews, the bowels (guts/stomach) were the place where emotions are and the heart was the place where intelligence lies - the mind to us.

Means, in our words, it would be "keep thy mind with all diligence". Having a pure mind is the first step to a sinless life. Luke 6:45 says:

A good person produces good things from the treasury of a good heart, and an evil person produces evil things from the treasury of an evil heart. What you say flows from what is in your heart.

Try replacing "heart" with "mind" and it makes perfect sense..

A good person produces good things from the treasury of a good mind, and an evil person produces evil things from the treasury of an evil mind. What you say flows from what is in your mind.

This text tells us the great need to give our minds completely to God and allow Him to keep them pure, because He's the only person who can.

In conclusion,

Guard your minds! Because what is in your minds is what will come out in your actions, it would show in the way you live your life. Ask God to keep your minds pure, so that you can be like Him.

father, this is what i ask of you..

something of erica's was with me..

was in uni as usual using one of the PCs...and guess what i found??

so tempted to keep it for myself since i need it anyway. but because i'm a nice person decided to check out who it belongs to. opened it and it was labeled 'erica mak'. no phone number in sight. how on earth am i gonna locate 'erica mak'??? these people should learn to put their phone numbers as labels instead!!

started posting on my batch's blog, and asking around if anyone knows such person. to no avail. suddenly, the great idea came.

found her blog. dropped a message and now, they are reunited. the wonders of google!

most welcome gal!

[7.8.2009] beau bristow on STAR

i just came home after a week at vista and first thing my sis said..

"do you know bo---oh berrr---ris---toee came out in the papers??"
(yea she has trouble pronouncing his name. )

she kept it and passed it to me, as if it was my best friend who came out on papers and i HAVE to keep it.



not bad huh. becoming such a star here. his next trip here's definitely going to earn him much more fans!! i miss his live performances! his recorded music in CDs are nothing compared to that!

anyway, to read the whole story, click here.

beau, make sure u come back again!